Thoughts of the day 2/25/2012
1. I always make friends with people I really like, obviously. People I think are good, and fascinating, and special. And the result of this is that I usually end up fearing that I’m not as special to them as they are to me. Because all of my friends, when I think about it, hold some kind of special place in my heart and I cherish them, and what if to them I’m just another person to walk into and out of their lives? What if I’m not as special or fascinating or good in their eyes? What if I’m just there?
2. My friend had to crash in my room a few nights ago so we both slept in my bed. He asked me if I like sharing a bed because he knows two of our friends hate it; absolutely can’t do it. I told him I didn’t mind it. The truth after thinking about it is I that do like to, because sometimes even just going to sleep by oneself is lonely.
3. I reconnected with an old friend tonight. We used to be inseparable. I miss her a lot. I don’t really know why we grew apart. At least we’re still able to talk like nothing has changed.
4. I like attention. I despise the act of seeking it out, but when it comes naturally, of its own accord, it feels good.
